Sea sickness

Sea sickness has been sorted on the boat. Some of us got sick some didn't. Understanding sea sickness is actually a very interesting thing. Here is what I wrote about it a few years ago in the oceanrowing workout section. Seasickness refers back to a reaction rooted in our biological heritage.

Another important thing rooted in our biological heritage, and another very important topic for this expedition, is the craving for sweet taste. Most people on an ocean row include sugary and sweet meals as a big part of their food rations (not me though). Originally, way way back when we were hunters and gatherers, cravings for sweetness could only be satiated by eating fruit. Such cravings meant that the body was calling to lower its acidity, as almost all fruit create an alkaline environment which automatically reduces body acidity... It is important to mention that acidity and alkalinity have nothing to do with taste. For example, lemon is a form of acid and tastes very sour, but is one of the most effective alkalizers. Acidic foods are mostly those foods that we think of as heavy, such as meat, bread, nuts, cheese and sugar. These foods cause the body to create an acidic environment while processing them, not because these foods necessarily taste acidic.

In a human body, acidity is an environment that allows anaerobic bacteria to breed. Anaerobic bacteria are one type of microbe that does not benefit your body in any way. In fact, anaerobic bacteria cause diseases and other troubles. So, when we feel cravings for sweet taste and we eat candy, we actually create an even more acidic environment contrary to the alkaline environment that our body is calling for! This, of course, will only increase our more craving for the sweet taste, and on and on and on while the body gets sick. What is the conclusion? When you feel cravings for sweet taste, eat fruit. Do we have fruits on board? No. So better skip sweets at all.

But this is not the only reason why I avoid sugars in my rations. The main reason actually comes from understanding different forms of energy. If you want a fire to last for a few hours, burn wood. If you want it to last 24h/7 burn coal. Compared to a human body, wood would be carbohydrates, and coal would be fats. Sugars in this metaphore would be comparable to maintaining the fire by adding tiny bits of fuel every few minutes... The fireplace is your body and the burning is the metabolism.

Given this understanding, fueling the body on an expedition like this with tiny little bits of sugar fuel is really silly. Another reason to avoid the sweets comes from understanding insulin and how it affects ones performance and shape, especially when on ultra-long endurance feats when one's cortisol level is elevated to the extreme. We know that cortisol “disturbs” the work of insulin and you can't really utilize all the glucose. What is the best alternative for eventual necessity of fast energy? Not sugars, but MCT and cortisol blockers. To make it short, as I spoke a bit more about it in the workout section, this is a fat that impacts your body like a sugar, carries more energy than any fat and doesn't need insulin. However, enough of this chemistry talk because we are almost getting into another “battle with nature” field.

P.S. One could also ask about burning protein as a fuel source, but protein is comparable to burning wet wood or even garbage on the fire. They make a lot of mess when they burn, don't produce that much energy, and therefor are not a good choice of body-fuel. But in the end, remember, you are more than a machine.

Stars

When I look into the stars, I quickly figure that I am nobody. On the boat, I am staring at the stars at least 6 hours per day, so it is hard to forget this simple message... I am not a math or astronomy genius, but in this infinite space around us, there are probably billions of planets just like ours. And here we are, six, small little creatures on the ocean trying to make our short presence in this world more significant by crossing part of this piece of sand called Earth that we ended up on.

You are probably thinking that I overdosed on sea sickness patches, hmm? Not at all! Or not yet... But again, I reflect, there is also this inner world of ours- our inner infinity. This is where you can really be an expeditioner- where your truth and your joy are the greatest things. To be an expeditioner here is one of the greatest achievements that even the stars and infinite cosmos will envy There, I see a door to become The Somebody

 

Prank

Laughter, in my hierarchy of values, is number one above all else. Yesterday we reinforced this value quite heavily. You see, there is no big event in my life that ever happens without being accompanied by a comparatively big prank. This week, waiting on standby for our departure, the crew and I properly built up a prank in which the captain was made to believe that our main support of this extreme challenge would consist of HGH injections. But let's describe it from the beginning, as it deserves more words. A longer telling is the only way to deliver a teaser of this prank that led to so much laughter. We (crew) were sitting at the table after dinner chatting about natural medicines. Suddenly (and it was not planned) Tim pulled the opener of the prank. In quite complex sounding athletic/medical gibberish, he properly introduced the diversity of methods by which to support oneself in extreme settings such as our row. Most importantly, he alluded to everyone at the table that we might have some stuff worth looking at. Here I chipped in with some motivational gibberish, mentioning how intense of a challenge we are about to undertake and how every extreme achievement goes along with sacrifices. As we are going to achieve something superhuman, we need to perform superhuman, I said, and the most superhuman that a person can become is through the application of Human Growth Hormone (HGH).

Having set the stage, I started to explain how amazing HGH is and how harmless and effective it can be at the same time. Everybody was engaged in the talk, and slowly, as to appear believable, each of the guys eventually became convinced that taking HGH is a good idea. During the conversation, we described a story in which Tim got 0,5kg of HGH (which, for the information of readers, would cost up to 6 digits). In the tale, the supplement was busted on the Australian border coming in from Thailand (Tim is a copper). Now we had it, and those of us doing the talking explained that we could use the supplement up now. We argued that this was the perfect opportunity, and a great way to save money. We explained the considerations, but upon mention, all of the guys enthusiastically agreed that ending up 2 inches taller per head by the end of the expedition is not a bad deal. Another thing that they agreed on was that we could all enjoy improved muscles mass by approx 20kg each.

After a moment's thought, Cameron said that he wouldn't mind being 6'4 but was wondering how it will influence our sleeping during the voyage. "It's no concern", I replied, "in fact, we could row 4 hours and rest 1 hour!" (compared to the usual 2 hours of rowing followed by 2 hours rest). Tim added (as he also works as a rowing coach for the kids and teenagers) that he used to give it to the kids and one of them would "rip the shit off the erg!".

Heather, now sufficiently pranked, raised an objection, mentioning that this is cheating. I responded that when we are crossing ocean we are not swimming but supporting ourselves with oars which is also a form of cheating! (I think that when you prank someone it is cool to gradually keep narrowing the distance toward complete absurdity). Tim piped up, adding that "we also need to cleanse in order to be able to benefit fully from the supplement. So here, the frog venom application will come in handy, allowing us to purge and prepare our bodies properly." (By now, everyone present knows that I really do use frog venom, so it didn't sound as unreal as it might to one reading the story). Cameron proceeded, "I will email my mom and ask her to research everything". He pulled out his phone out and started typing quickly. I added that by using frog venom, we can actually amplify the efficiency of HGH by about 5 times, so, we could benefit from it even more and save a lot of money and a lot of HGH itself. We could even use it for the recovery mode after the row itself once we arrive in Africa!

At this stage Heather was crying (with tiny bits of laughing). The captain (also pranked) went with a glass of whiskey and with Heather out for a chat. Inside, all of us pranksters now plotted how we could bring this situation into even deeper absurdity. I suggested that with the same amount of scientific gibberish we could suggest and argue the method of HGH application.

Heather and the captain eventually came back in. Straight away, Captain started to become motivational, beginning a moralizing speech with the words: "I want to assure that all of you understand that you either you don't take the supplement, or you don't go." He added: "we will have a thorough discussion on it tomorrow". I interrupted saying, "Okay, so tomorrow we discuss it, but today we could already start a cycle, and by tomorrow, everyone could see what it works like!"

From there, as if nothing was wrong with my idea, we started explaining our solution to oceanic HGH application. "You don't wanna lose a dose because it messes things up" said Tim.

"However," continued Cameron, "handling needles on a rocking boat that might swing left and right and inject in a wrong place is risky".

"So," I said, "we found an alternative to it."

After a pause, Shane addressed the captain, "Leven, what is the easiest way to get drunk?". The captain blinked. No response. "Through an enema!".

I continued, "following this simple fact, Shane, within his knowledge of biochemical engineering (his real profession) and basic kitchen utensils (motioning toward the dining room), could convert the HGH IV (intravenous) into an IR (intrarectal)!"

At this point, it was really difficult not to burst into laughter but we were making it. Captain responded sarcastically: "Oh, in this case it is not a problem". At that, we all burst into laughter, but it only camouflaged the situation more as he was sure that we were laughing at nothing else than his joke.

The Captain then switched back to the moralizing speech. At that point we had to reveal the prank. Upon disclosure, Captain said nothing. Only after quite a few seconds in a frozen state did he raise his fist at me. This whole event lasted total, about 30 minutes. Although this shortcut can't deliver all the stupid small sentences that were spoken, the funny discussions and the hilarity of the crew pretending to gradually buy into the idea, it is enough to illustrate a precious moment between everyone involved in the row, to share a glimpse into our pre-departure purgatory, and perpetuate the laughter which I value so much. Luckily captain, we didn't proceed on to the next point of pranksters agenda which would convey that the most beneficial HGH assimilation happens when combined with fecal transplant (research fecal transplant on your own, Aussies know how to make things economical, simple and effective).

Last thoughts

Journalists cut the coolest parts of the interviews out and emphasize the ones that please the audience the most. But let me update something really cool that in my opinion should have been kept there instead of ridiculous talks about dangers and perils of the expedition.

When you are setting off for the expedition like this one, you can't fear death. You should rather live your life fully enough until that moment, so that it feels like your life had happened already and you can painlessly give it away. No fear and panic when the woodcutter is coming because the tree bloomed already. Not lived life is the scary part that we are not aware of, not the death. This is one of the biggest values these expeditions are pushing me to understand and explore.

Heroes of Western Australia

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(Tip: Try to imagine it is read by David Attenborough) History is being cruel. Sometimes more intense than the most frightening script of a horror movie. Especially when it comes to wars. Hardly any land manages to maintain the history of no war record. Australia declared only one war. The Great Emu War (click to read wikipedia article). It was "Great" in fact as stated. Nature can be cruel too. Australia lost. To acknowledge the victory of the superior species, I surrender in a gesture of deep respect and admiration in front of the oppressors and unconquered soldiers, Emu of the Western Australia. May them wish me good luck in the coming voyage and share the strength and strategic genius with me.

Pre departure entry

Pre departure entry: Maps I want to remember and follow, and are equally important to me. And I will write this blog reporting my progress within all of them.

1. Wide context

2. Heart

3. Surface

Personal development, meditation & extreme expeditions

 Break through points lead to choosing extreme conditions, and extreme conditions lead to break through points. In whichever case, a person will turn more toward exploring the purpose of their life, and its meaning.

 

Now finally the most interesting and important connection: Embarking on a expedition always has the potential of bringing you the rare opportunity to perceive your life in the ultimate perspective. It is only at the moment when you are sure you are going to die in a minute or two that you have your last seconds to review your life and state honestly to yourself whether or not you lived your life and to what extent. As long as you have plan B and plan C to escape, then you won't be forced to be direct enough to consider the things you could have thought of before but never had a 'chance' to face. In such a near-death situation this statement will naturally appear without the wrap-up bullshit that our lives are full of. Years of introspective struggle might not be able to take you there; such is human nature. I would estimate that this experience is worth $1million.

The conclusions we get to at that point are often very similar. They have one predominant tendency: emphasis for living one's own life instead of what is expected by others, and enjoying life more now instead of waiting for the goal to come...

I decided to paste below a list of the most predominant regrets that people who were actually dying have stated. Maybe it will inspire you to give a moment to consider your own life in a similar light:

1. I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.
2. I wish I hadn't worked so hard.
3. I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.
4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.
5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.
(based on research by Bronnie Ware)


In terms of mental preparation all of your life that you've lived so far is a preparation. All of the moments in your past that you executed more effort from yourself, more determination, persistence, focus, and all of the moments that you handled pain and discomfort and that you pushed your limits... these will be an asset...

 

Now a bit of humor in the end to chill out.

It is going to be black humor though, sorry. The funniest or most amazing death accidents:

 458 BC: Aeschylus, the great Athenian author of tragedies. Valerius Maximus wrote that he was killed by a tortoise dropped by an eagle that had mistaken his head for a rock suitable for shattering the shell of the reptile. Pliny, in his Naturalis Historiæ, adds that Aeschylus had been staying outdoors to avert a prophecy that he would be killed by a falling object.

1518: In the Dancing Plague of 1518 a woman (and eventually a league of 400 people) uncontrollably danced for a month causing dozens of participants to die of stroke and exhaustion. The reason for this occurrence is still unclear
As the dancing plague worsened, concerned nobles sought the advice of local physicians, who ruled out astrological and supernatural causes, instead announcing that the plague was a "natural disease" caused by "hot blood." However, instead of prescribing bleeding, authorities encouraged more dancing, in part by opening two guildhalls and a grain market, and even constructing a wooden stage. The authorities did this because they believed that the dancers would only recover if they danced continuously night and day. To increase the effectiveness of the cure, authorities even paid for musicians to keep the afflicted moving. Some of the dancers were taken to a shrine, where they sought a cure for their affliction[

1916: Grigori Rasputin, Russian mystic, was poisoned while dining with a political enemy, and supposedly he was given enough poison to kill three men his size. When he did not die, one assassin sneaked up behind him and shot him in the head, and while checking Grigori's pulse he was grabbed by the neck by the mystic and was strangled. He proceeded to run away, while the other assassins chased. They caught up to him after he was finally felled by three shots during the chase. The pursuers bludgeoned him, then threw him into a frozen river. When his body washed ashore, an autopsy showed the cause of death to be hypothermia, not drowning.

Crazy Horse

Crazy Horse, legendary Sioux leader and his famous battlefield phrase: "Hoka hey, today is a good day to die!". Only fulfilled person can feel like joyfully dying at the moment as nothing is missing, life is kept complete every day. Nothing is postponed. I believe it is the only real wealth we can own: to live our lives leaving nothing missing. I think we usually don't fear death of body, neither pain. Only the life we haven't lived. The end comes but the life has not happened yet. People who lived their lives seem to worry little if at all when their life is threatened.
 

Actually the phrase became so popular that people started thinking that "Hoka hey" means "today is a good day to die". But it means "let's do it!" or "let's move on!" he used to add before the dying phrase. Still it is quality of brave people of great inner wealth, to be able to jump, to make the step, to take the risk and especially when it touches the death..... Not to talk, not to think, but "just do it". This mysterious "doing it" is usually the step towards the unknown and consist mainly ofleaving behind the old part of our self. It is sort of death indeed. It requires a touch of a mad man and an existential explorer/gambler courage.

Coach

My coach is a bit unconventional. He is wearing weird clothes. Well, he definitely has his own style. I am happy when I don't have to wear the same clothes during most of the trainings, but occasionally it is not that big issue to put them on.

But please don't ask about my previous coach......

Now regardless of whether you believe the information above or not here is a piece of a story which credibility I vouch for.

Back in my competitive rowing times, during the winters, I would always row on the erg early morning when the gym was empty and nobody was working out yet. Sometimes I would have my own keys to be able to enter on my own. Coach (not the one described here, just a regular human coach) would sometimes come one hour later and would find me there rowing. Lights were always off. He could never understand it and laughing he would say: "I bet you are preparing for 24/7 rowing?". Could he have planted an idea in me back then having repeated it so many times? I guess I liked the lights off more than watching boring square walls.

Eugene Smurgis

One of the best ocean rowers of all time is Eugine Smurgis. Little is known about this epic figure mainly due to him coming from a land that didn’t help him in any way with promotional exposure - Arctic Russia. He rowed in the Arctic four times between 1988 and 1993 in primitive, simple boats over distances ranging from 400 to 1600 miles, although he would stop on land at times. By 1990 he had reached the Northern most latitude at 77º, 44’0’’N. Interestingly Eugine Smurgis was the only arctic ocean rower who completed his attempted routes. None of the more recent expeditions ever reached the completion of their Arctic rows. 

Not necessarily I admire him for the way he treated his son, but in the end mainly for the "bulldog's grip on this expedition, and nothing could tear him away" personality. If it was me commenting Eugene, I would say wolverine's grip, as wolverine has about 10 times stronger jaws than a bulldog.

His warrior spirit was far stronger than any other famous rower of his times or of any times. It is just that his story is not an American story......It is not Admiral Byrd recieving millions of dolars from Rockefeller to explore the Antarctica. It is a man who didn't have enough money to eat dinner but had enough of spirit to cross Arctic ocean in an open rowing boat. It hasn't been done again even though we have pro boats now. I have no doubts he would have been number one oceanrower (statistics wise) if he had finances to pursue it.

(the information below comes from a book by Kenneth CRUTCHLOW & Steve BOGA)

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Eugene was born in 1938 in Orenburg, Ural. His father was an Air Force pilot. After finishing secondary school, where he first began rowing, Smurgis entered a teachers training institute in the city of Perm near the Ural Mountains. The area, laced with rivers, enabled him to continue rowing.

After graduating from college, he became an anthropology teacher in Tulpan, an out-of-the-way hamlet on one of the Volga's tributaries. It was there that Smurgis first saw the boat of his dreams, the boat that would alter the course of his life. He watched as an old woman struggled at the oars, inching upstream, with heaps of hay piled in the stern. The boat, 7 meters long, was the same design that had been used for centuries by the ancient Pomors tribe along the upper Volga. Its bow and stern were slightly upturned, suggesting a Dutch wooden shoe.

Smurgis hired a local craftsman to build a boat similar to the one he'd seen the old woman rowing. When it was completed, he decided to take it for a spin. Dubbing it Max-4, he took to the oars for 43 days, finishing 4,500 kilometers later in Lipetsk, where his parents lived. In traveling down the Kama and Volga Rivers and up the Don, Smurgis was pleasantly surprised by how easy his small craft was to steer.

He had found his medium, his raison d'etre. He soon realized that full-time teaching was not compatible with marathon rowing. Teaching would have to go. He needed seasonal work, so he quit to become a commercial hunter and woodcutter. For the rest of his life, he would follow the same basic pattern of rowing summers and working winters.

Over the next twenty years, a self-taught Eugene Smurgis rowed 36,700 kilometers of inland waterways, navigating all the major rivers and lakes of Russia, and later Siberia. In the beginning he rowed with a partner, but on his third trip, in 1971, he went alone, crossing part of the Caspian Sea in thirteen days. It was the start of his solo career. In 1976 he went solo for twenty-six days; two years later, he rowed north to the Kara Sea, alone that time for 40 days and 40 nights--all this in a boat with no cabin, no crawl space.

He adapted well to being alone with the sea, but his dream, his ultimate rowing challenge, included a human partner: his son, Alexander.

As a boy, Alexander, nicknamed Sasha, was often sickly and weak, and Eugene, macho conqueror of nature, worried about his "sissy son." Eugene married Alexander's mother in the Far East, but little else is known of her. Sasha, born in December 1971, grew up in the town of Lipetsk, 400 kilometers south of Moscow. By the time he was a teenager, he was a head taller than his sinewy, balding father. The boy had broad shoulders and a lean, athletic body. Although he was a handsome lad, some might say he had a "baby face." This may have fed his father's fears of raising a sissy son. In any case, he vowed to toughen the kid up.

In 1986, when Sasha was not yet fifteen, his father shanghaied him for his longest adventure yet--4,800 kilometers over 44 days. The Smurgis team rowed the Amur River, the Sea of Okhotsk, the Sea of Japan, finishing in Vladivostok. It was there in that eastern Siberia port that Eugene had the vision destined to direct the rest of his life: He and Sasha, Smurgis and Smurgis, would row the world! Alexander's reaction to this blueprint for his life is unknown.

In 1987 father and son united for another marathon row, this time 1400 kilometers on the White Sea and the Onega River. In the fall, Alexander went off to technical college. Eugene, infused with visions of becoming the first Russian to achieve heroic stature in a rowboat, decided he couldn't wait for his son. He would start without him.

In 1988 he journeyed to the northern Siberian community of Tiksi to commence the around-the-world expedition that for so long had fueled his dreams. Tiksi, at about 72 degrees north latitude, was a bi-chromatic world of ice and pale blue water. Although he often had to drag his boat, now Pella-Fiord, over rough pack ice, he reached Khatanga, 1300 kilometers away, in 30 days.

In 1990, with his son still in school, he returned alone to Khatanga, rowed the treacherous waters around Cape Chelyuskin, reaching a latitude of 77 degrees north, and finished at Dikson, reputedly the coldest place in Asia. His total for the second leg: 2,100 kilometers in 65 days.

Vanya Rezvoy, who helped with this article by translating the Smurgis documents from Russian into English, sees Eugene Smurgis as a man who was always rushing. "It's like someone was standing behind him with a stopwatch, yelling 'Go, go!'" he says. Rezvoy has read parts of Eugene's diary, and what emerges for him is someone who seldom stopped to smell the roses. "Much of the diary is technical," he says. "It shows a man without the time to watch nature."

In Dikson, though, Eugene seemed to open up more than usual, at least in his diary. No doubt buoyed by his son's participation, he offered some actual insights:

18 August, 1992 Drizzly. For the last 24 hours didn't have an hour of sleep. Already tired and haven't left Dikson yet. All the trouble of building, transporting, equipping, and organizing the boat, and we still have the rowing to do. In all, 2,500 kilometers through three cold northern seas.

The last two months have worn me out. I can feel tiredness as a huge weight, pressing on my soul, on my body, on my mind. It hasn't been easy--in all my travels I can't remember ever having so little rest time.

We raise our oars to the vertical to signal port authorities that we are ready to leave in (new) Max 4. The "4" stands for four oars, manned by me and my son, Sasha. He was away at technical college and wasn't on the first two legs with me. But he has been a part of my rowing expeditions since he was 14, when we rowed the Lena River.

That time, testing our new boat Pella-fiord, we rowed 4,500 kilometers in 45 days. The next year we rowed the Onega River, from mouth to source. On that trip, I began to take notice of my son. Yes, I realized, he could do things. We made a perfect team, a good fit for each other. Now on this adventure, he has matured even more. He is 20, quite strong, and a perfect companion.

As we leave the harbour, the boat immediately begins jumping on the waves, as if she is happily anticipating this voyage.

19 August Today is my birthday (54th), and God granted us this hut on the shore of a wonderful isolated harbour. Here, protected from the winds, we were able to sort things out on the boat and make improvements. We have already learned that we cannot both sleep at the same time. There is not enough air in the tiny cabin, so we must drill holes.

Sasha is cooking dinner of reindeer meat, and we are having vodka. Fifty-fourth birthday...a lucky day. I'm still traveling, still excited about what I'm doing, still feel like I'm living, really living.

I can't remember the last time I had my birthday on dry land...can't remember the last time I had relatives with me while celebrating my birthday.

I will remember two birthdays forever. One, 1978, caught in pack ice, desperately trying to cross frozen harbour in a storm, white water boiling all around me, wind blowing and foam flying...

The other, 1983, in the Sea of Japan, under a huge, bright moon, quite still, with barely a ripple....

On September 30, 1992, Eugene and Alexander Smurgis reached Murmansk, an ice-free port and the largest city above the Arctic Circle. They had completed the third leg of the most daunting rowing adventure in history. Since leaving Dikson, father and son had covered 2,500 kilometers in 43 days. It was a real Smurgis family achievement, and Eugene was thrilled. Navigating stretches of free water flowing among ice packs, they had crossed the Kara and Barents Seas, all the while enduring ferocious winds, wrong-way currents, limited rations, and each other. They had made it--together.

Taking turns at the oars, they had averaged 4 kilometers an hour--when they rowed. Sometimes the land closed in around them, and they had to use a rope to drag the boat, sometimes over jumbled hummocks of ice.

There is almost no human life on the barren northern sea coast between Dikson and Murmansk. The rowers came upon only the occasional weather station, fishing village, or military site. The few people they did see invariably welcomed them as heroes and offered them supplies. Eugene would show them the letter he carried from the publishers of Around the World magazine, certifying that the Smurgis adventure was legitimate and urging readers of the letter to help. One can trace the progress of the Smurgis boat by the rubber stamps they received from the polar stations, some of which were adrift on ice floes.

When the Smurgises returned to Murmansk in June 1993 to begin the fourth leg, they were sure they had their papers in order. They would now be leaving Russian territory, making security an issue. At first the authorities gave them permission to leave. But then, after two hours of hard rowing out of Murmansk, they were abruptly surrounded by border guards and coast guard officers, who rudely dragged them back to Murmansk. They could feel the tentacles of the Russian bureaucracy closing around them.

Aided by Around the World magazine, the rowers had procured seaman's passports and, they thought, the necessary stamps. They registered as the crew of an "ocean-going vessel," which essentially let them leave the country anytime they had a good reason to go.

The stooges in the Ministry of Security, formerly known as the KGB, were slow to catch on, but they eventually decided the Smurgis boat did not qualify as an ocean-going vessel. Although the rowers' paperwork had been in perfect order, the bureaucrats waved their magic wand and rendered them worthless. Father and son were forced to return to Lipetsk to sort out matters. At first Eugene was furious, but he soon accepted the delay as just another in a long line of obstacles they must overcome. Two weeks later, they were back in Murmansk with new, improved paperwork.

Murmansk to London was a definite increase in intensity. The distance was 4,000 kilometers, much of it above the Arctic Circle. Then there was the North Sea, with its terrible headwinds. In all, they took 88 days, more than twice as long as from Dikson to Murmansk, and suffered untold hardships.

"It has been a constant battle against the weather," Eugene told an interpreter, "but at no time did we allow ourselves to feel afraid." With a touch of national pride, he added, "The boat was made by craftsmen from the Urals, so we knew it would get us through even the worst storms."

But that was then and this was now. And now In London they needed provisions and boat repairs and a new radio (their old one had a range of 5 miles). Eugene publicly offered to put any sponsors' names on the boat. Adding a little butter, he told reporters, "We wanted to visit Britain because it has been the home of so many great seafarers throughout history."

Added Alexander: "A lot of great sailors throughout history have set sail from London on transatlantic journeys. We are pleased to be following them in our rowing boat."

On September 29, 1993, four weeks after arriving in London, Eugene Smurgis rowed down the Thames and out into open water--alone. He had no sponsor and, more important, no son. His dream of rowing around the world en famille was in ashes. Alexander, after being detained as an illegal immigrant by English authorities, was en route back to Russia, while he was left to continue the journey by himself.

He was bitterly disappointed in his son. his sissy son. He had simply broken under the pressure, the deprivation, the sheer hard work. A big reason he had started the whole adventure, he told himself, was to share it with his son. It had been his chance to make a man out of him, but he had failed.

For Eugene, the difficulties and hardships were a gift of fate; he lived for such challenges. But Alexander was not like that, and it was a difference Eugene couldn't accept. So beaten down was Sasha that in London he nearly suffered a nervous breakdown. When Galenko or others questioned him about the Murmansk-to-London leg, tears would well up in his eyes and he couldn't speak. In a BBC interview, he responded to the inevitable "How tough was it?" question with a shake of the head and a mumbled,"Very difficult." Vanya Rezvoy considers it likely that Eugene stifled any talk that might be seen as a complaint.

Such relentless pressure sent Alexander teetering on the psychological edge. But Eugene could see only a son who, once obedient, was now a rebel, out of control. Galenko recognized what Eugene was blind to: The boy needed time to rest, time to restore mind, body, and spirit. Why not stop and celebrate the victory so far? suggested Galenko. But it was not to be. The invisible stopwatch continued to tick, even if Eugene was the only one who could hear it. After several quarrels, Sasha, fed up with the ironman routine, withdrew from the row.

Vasiliy Galenko sympathized with the boy. He knew almost as well as Alexander what it was like to share a rowboat with Eugene. He had accompanied him on a 1983 expedition along the Amur River to Vladivostok and the Sea of Japan (1,750 kilometers in 30 days), during which they ran smack into two typhoons. It wasn't so much that Smurgis was autocratic, rather that he was impulsive to the extreme, relentlessly determined to do things his own way and confident that it was the right way. That usually meant going rather than staying, if that was the debate. Although it was the ideal philosophy for a one-man boat, it was a tad insensitive toward a boatmate. For his part, Galenko finally realized that if he continued rowing marathons with Eugene, he would either die or have a nervous breakdown. Small wonder if Sasha had reached the same conclusion.

Still, you had to admire the old man's dedication, his tenacity. He had a bulldog's grip on this round-the-world expedition, and nothing could tear him away. Time after time, he ignored the warnings of others and rowed into the teeth of storms, only to emerge unscathed at the other end. His diary supports the impression of a man lacking the gene for fear. "They told me there will be a storm. Should I wait? Nah, I'll go." One by one, his companions succumbed to a dread that was alien to Eugene.

Of course, after more than 700 days and nights of rowing, Smurgis could be excused for believing that he was the most qualified judge of rowing risk. Who was going to give advice to a man who had spent almost two years of his life in a small rowboat?

The Coast Guard tried to. When it was time to leave London and head south for the Mediterranean, they urged Smurgis to stay inland and navigate the canals of France rather than brave the Atlantic Ocean and the dreaded Bay of Biscay. Not surprisingly, he ignored their advice, saying, "I don't want to soak my oars in fresh water anymore. I am an ocean rower now."

Dover 6 October, 2:00 a.m. As I slept on my boat, a dead silence was broken by a knocking. "Hello, I'm a Russian tourist and I sw you on TV. Would you like some vodka?"

I declined the vodka but accepted his offer of food. Then he asked for a photograph and I gave him one. He is also called Sasha, from St. Petersburg. His wife is Irish. Before he left to catch a ferry, he apologized for waking me. "I couldn't resist," he said. "Incidentally, where is your son?"

And so I had to lie and not tell this nice guy that my son just broke down, that he turned out to be a sissy.

The appearance of this fellow Russian is the only bright spot in these last few unhappy days of westerly winds and black clouds.

When I tried to leave, I progressed only 100 meters in one hour. Though I impressed the fellows in the pilot boat with my efforts, I had to return to the marina.

Dover 8 October I'm here with 120 Russian cadets from a huge sailing barque. Some of the cadets took a ride on my boat and liked it very much. I have been working on the boat and taking walks around town, thinking only one thing: Will the coming storms let me reach the Canary Islands?

Sasha, of course, is gone. The moment he smelled something burning on the stove, he defected. Perhaps the instinct for self-preservation is stronger when you're young.

I, on the other hand, have no place to retreat, no place to go back to. My money problems only seem to get worse. Even rationing my food, I have hardly enough for one month more. Yesterday I denied myself the pleasure of eating my one true luxury item--salted pork fat. I counted on selling some of the souvenirs I'm carrying for food money, but the beaches are empty and they won't let me sell in the cities.

Two German and two Dutch yachts left today, and now only one Danish catamaran and I are left. Spirits are low--I'm depressed--and rain every day adds to that feeling.

Awake at two on the morning to strong winds and waves. Try to change the position of the boat, but it is futile in these winds.

7:00 a.m. Looking out at sea from the pier, it is all white. Damn, damn, damn! Every day counts now.

The Russian captain of the barque invited me to attend their farewell dinner, but I declined.

Trying to leave, trying to leave. I harness myself to the boat and make a desperate attempt to leave the harbour. But low tide combined with wind drag me back. And that after the Russian captain talked me into trying at low tide.

Back in, I tie to a buoy and cook dinner. At 9:30 the pilot boat appears, and the captain tells me it's the right time to leave. Now I must battle not only rough seas but darkness. Still, I can see lights along the shore, so it is okay.

I have to sweat a lot just to get out of the harbour, but I finally make it. Good bye, land. Will I see you again? The pilot boat returns, signals with a siren, and leaves again. I never heard a complaint from those men, even though I cost them a lot of time and trouble. I will take it as a tribute to the importance of my mission.

The Dover Coast Guard warned Smurgis to avoid the treacherous Bay of Biscay, but of course that was daring a child, like waving a red flag in front of a bull. They urged him to use the French canal system instead. Once again he ignored the advice. Who dared tell him how to row, row, row his boat?

English Channel, 25 October Tied the oars and locked myself in the cabin, a dark place. And also dark thoughts about the future and my current situation. According to the plan hatched by Vasiliy and me, I should be in the Canary Islands by now...and I have yet to reach France.

In the mornings it is okay--my spirits are usually high. But once it gets dark, my spirits go down with the temperature. But it will be fine. The biggest ventures in life are hard, but you must do them all the way to the end.

I see this journey as a tribute to my father. Last time I saw him in a hospital bed, he told me, "No matter what happens to me, don't delay your adventure." He died soon after that, almost as though he preplanned his death so that I could be there to bury him. His timing was perfect--I didn't even have to postpone leaving for Murmansk.

Eight in the morning, rowing south. Can see three islands off Normandy (Channel Islands)...a lighthouse...and then a continent: France!

Island of Jersey 26 October Got my anchor stuck. Debated waiting for the current to change. But what if I wait and still can't get my anchor back? Cut the cable and lost the anchor. It was a good anchor that served me well not too long. It was a gift anyway. And that's how I lost 21 pounds of anchor and 50 meters of cable.

So now I have to get ashore and find a rock to make my spare anchor heavier. The shore here looks inviting. There are lots of nice green harbours and good places to get ashore.

Some Frenchmen approach shouting the name of (French ocean rower) Gerard d'Aboville. They are happy that I know of him, and they give me a dozen bottles of beer.

Bay of Biscay 14 November Spent the night worrying. I don't like this area, with the rocks nearby, a devilish neighborhood. How many souls have been lost here? I hope I won't add one more soul to the collection.

By 5 o'clock the boat is jumping more than ever. White water all around. I still see the rocks. It's two hours before the low tide will be over.

Finally I unhooked from the buoy and started rowing, trying to put a safe distance between me and the rocks. An hour and a half row against the current, crawling southeast. With the high tide, and the boat started going, going, going. Now I can relax and have some breakfast....

Got some breakfast, got some rest, and started rowing southwest with the current.

At night I saw that if the wind doesn't weaken or change, I will be blown back to La Rochelle, two hours of rowing wasted. If so, I will spend the night there, shower, send a fax to Vasiliy, and get in touch with the press...

It's too bad I'm spending all my energy correcting the effects of the wind. All the time I row southwest but move directly south.

I'm surrounded by shallows, and strange posts are sticking out of the water all over. I've tied off to a buoy. I will stay here until the next high tide, at 22:30.

Thus ends Eugene Smurgis's final entry. Sometime later that day, November 14, 1993, under mysterious circumstances, the Russian rower was thrown from his boat. The next day Max-4 washed ashore near the town of La Tremblade, on the west coast of France. Four days later, after a massive but fruitless search, Smurgis's body washed ashore nearby.

After Smurgis's death, Around the World published excerpts of Eugene's diary. Vasiliy Galenko continued to write articles publicizing the exploits of his difficult friend. Trying to explain what would possess someone to attempt to row around the world, Galenko pointed to the Amur River-to-Vladivostok expedition he shared with Smurgis: "We made it through 30 days and two typhoons. Eugene was ready to push farther. The time was ripe for a round-the-world trip."

Galenko suggests three other factors that motivated Smurgis: "First geographic curiosity, because he was a traveler at heart. Second, to make history. And finally, it was a romantic thing to do."

Galenko arranged for Max-4 to be donated to a maritime museum in La Tourblade "as a monument to the courage of the Russian adventurer." He also put together a memorial service for Smurgis in La Tremblade on April 2, 1994.

In response to an invitation to attend the ceremony, French ocean rower Gerard d'Aboville sent Galenko the following letter:

Dear Sir,

Thanks for your letter which I just received. Many thanks also for all the information enclosed.

Unfortunately I did not know about Eugene before a journalist informed me that a Russian rower was lost at sea in Bay of Biscay.

I would have liked so much meeting Eugene when he was in Brest, and maybe I would have been able to convince him not to cross the Bay of Biscay (a very dangerous place) in the time of year he tried to...

Slim chance.

F.A.Q.

Questions answered:

 

Are you not afraid you are going to die?

-In most cases that I've seen, working day to day in an office is like already being dead. I would definitely prefer to die on the ocean than lose my life to a typical career. Moreover, [death on the water, ocean, ect] would be beautiful. Consider the people who die of heart attacks due to business stress. That is an ugly death.


 

Is it worth risking everything for one ocean crossing?

-I see people who never risk anything and it hasn't taken them anywhere. The opposite attitude might, in the worst case, take me to the same place.



Why do you do it?

-The times we now live in offer so few gentle ways of living a life. I find extreme feats like ocean rowing to be among the most reasonable responses to our highly dehumanized reality nowadays. It contains something of the indigenous man with a bit of an adventurer touch. If you read the book Siddhartha (my favorite book and I highly recommend), you can see that even he who explored all of what life is, in the end chose to become a rower. I thought I would save time and get straight to the core :)
 

 

What kind of effort it is?

-If you really row for the record, it's more or less like this: Imagine you run a marathon. Now imagine you run two marathons a day. Imagine that you row them instead of run. Now imagine that this is going on for one month, and meanwhile you are not going back to a cozy clean bed, but sharing a small space with another sweaty big guy like you.



Are you not afraid of sharks?

-Not to lie and not to say the truth: I'm afraid of no sharks as long as I'm on the boat, or as long as the shark is in the water.



What if one or the other isn't?

-So as not to lie and not to say the truth, I don't think I would have any time to think about it. However, I always carry with me a little bag of curry in my pocket that I would pour over myself. I am for animals rights. When I lived in India, they would always tell me, 'when you see Bengali tiger approaching you, sit down, don't disturb him'.
 


How do you rest?

-I row 2 hours and rest 2 hours while another crew member is rowing. So it goes continuously 24/7.



Can you sleep?

-You try to, it ends up averaging 4hrs a day of successful sleep.



Do you take water with you?

-No, it would be impossible. Instead, there is desalinator that is powered by a solar panel



What do you eat?

-As you are on the ocean, you maintain a see food diet: You see food on boat, you eat it. However, you really should not practice a humanitarian diet (eat your crew mates)......not. You eat freeze dry food. You put hot water into it and it saturates in a few minutes. It tastes like plastic but it is the best you can get in this case.
 


How much water do you drink?

-Average 10 liters per day, depending on the day.

 


Do you loose weight?

-Yes, big time. Average weight-loss is up to 1kg (2.2lbs) per day. Plus, the food that you eat consists mostly of fat because it is the most compact form of energy. Such food doesn't really allow you to build muscles. Instead, being unable to regenerate, muscles are lost. It may seem that ocean-rowers would come back very strong, but it actually turns out to be opposite: one comes back totally exhausted and drained.
 

 

Do you really choose to put on weight up to 20kgs before the expedition?

It depends on personal choice and the way you cooperate with your body constitution :) It is not always clear answer "yes" or "no". I described it more extensively here (scroll down to the end of the chapter 4).

 


Do you see dolphins?

-We see all sorts of sea creatures occasionally. In fact, their presence is very supportive. Whenever someone produces stinky odours, says loudly as if annoyed: "Dolphin just did it!".

 


How do you wash?

-Hardly ever honestly, it is the last thing you think about.

 


How do you solve the toilet?

-There are all sorts of installations. Each boat has a different idea, but in the end, one way or another it ends up in the ocean.

 

 


How do you share such a small space with other people for such a long time?

-Space and time are factors, yes, and there are many others as well like being hungry, tired, dirty, stinking, injured, bruised....more than ever makes the conflicts appear way easier than it would be otherwise. You must simply try to repress it for the well-being of the row and work it through when you arrive on the land.

 


What do you like the most about it?

-Many things described in the blog... I think what first comes to my head though is this huge rollercoaster feeling which sometimes lasts 24/7 for free. The bigger waves the more pleasant.

 


How big are the waves?

-The waves stayed at a 6m peak (18ft) for many days on the Atlantic Ocean. On the Indian they are said to be 11m (33ft).

 


Is it comparable to being on a ship?

-No, a ship is big enough to stabilize the movements and doesn't entirely follow waves. The boat does. It is very different to see from zero level perspective.

 


Do you hallucinate of being tired?

-Yes, I described some of them in the journal. (blog archives)

 

 

How do you keep your ipod charged?

-plug it in to the same solar panel as desalinator for example. It might be unavailable during cloudy days.

 


What do your friends and family think about you doing it?

-In most of the cases they understand me and rather support me.

 


How many people rowed the ocean?

-Approximately 700.


Is it an official race?

-In a sense it is, yes. Part of the skill though is to estimate the best departure date, so it is not required to follow a particular time frame. What matters is average speed.

 


How can one prepare him/herself to such attempt?

Only to a certain extent... The challenge is 50% mental, 50% physical, though the proportions might vary depending on conditions on the ocean.In terms of mental preparation, your whole life that you've lived so far is a preparation. All of the moments in your past that you executed more effort from yourself, more determination, persistence, focus, and all of the moments that you handled pain and discomfort and that you pushed your limits... these will be an asset... For this reason, it makes logical sense to me that a person could take particular workshops and developmental classes as well that extend people's abilities in such fields, but I have not heard of people doing it just for the well-being of a planned expedition.


Physical preparation is also limited: In truth, you can never be totally ready. The performance of ocean-rowing is degrading to one's fitness rather than evolving because of its intensity. During the preparations stage you have to stay within the right amount and the right intensity of exercise that will evolve your fitness as much as possible without yet degrading (allowing you to regenerate). You also have to stay within the right amount/intensity of exercise that will make stamina and strength grow while weight continues to increase... It means you would work out in a very intensive mode for 3 hours a day in preparations stage. This has to be an aerobic mode though (not anaerobic). Otherwise, your weight will drop and in the long run, so will performance. So practically speaking, on the ocean a person will row for 12 hours a day but during the preparations it doesn't even make sense to row even for 4, because it would not let your body regenerate. Can you really be prepared? It is a tricky question. One day you just do it.



What else can you do to make it better?

-Personally, I use old Icelandic magic that I briefly learned from local sorcerers.


 

What might the conditions of the ocean be like?

-This video and it's description totally stands for ocean conditions. When I saw this video as a teenager I thought that it was surely an unreal interpretation of what ocean could be. Having rowed across though, I can now say that sometimes it looks exactly like this. The thing is, when days like this one come around nobody thinks about recording. Also, a camera wouldn't capture anything except for the darkness and the sound of howling wind. Regardless, no matter what kind of day it is there is no other boat next to you that could record your boat from a distance either. The wall of water spreading across the entire frame is absolutely realistic though. That's why I decided to keep this piece among my videos.

 

Siddhartha

Fragment of the book "Siddhartha" by Herman Hesse

" ....The river knows everything; one can learn everything from it. You have already learned from the water that it is good to strive downwards, to sink, to seek the depths.....

....I do not yet quite understand,” said Govinda. “How do you mean?” Siddhartha said: “Once, O worthy one, many years ago, you came to this river and found a man sleeping there. You sat beside him to guard him while he slept, but you did not recognize the sleeping man, Govinda.”
Astonished and like one bewitched the monk gazed at the ferryman.
“Are you Siddhartha?” he asked in a timid voice. ‘“I did not recognize you this time, too. I am very pleased to see you again, Siddhartha, very pleased. You have changed very much, my friend. And have you become a rower now?” Siddhartha laughed warmly. “Yes, I have become a rower. Many people have to change a great deal and wear all sorts of clothes. I am one of those, my friend.....

....You know, my friend, that even as a young man, when we lived with the ascetics in the forest, I came to distrust doctrines and teachers and to turn my back on them. I am still of the same turn of mind, although I have, since that time, had many teachers. A beautiful courtesan was my teacher for a long time, and a rich merchant and a dice player. On one occasion, one of the Buddha’s wandering monks was my teacher. He halted in his pilgrimage to sit beside me when I fell asleep in the forest. I also learned something from him and I am grateful to him, very grateful. But most of all, I have learned from this river....."

High altitude training

I am aware that in locations mentioned above (previous post) the altitude is not really that high. 2500m is nothing to be too crazy about and international pressure to push for Iten is a bit overrated. I think the main advantage of Iten is the ability to compete with the best ones and that’s it. Otherwise there are towns located 4000m+. Proper towns, not some tiny settlements.As High Altitude towns are my favorite destinations and the best perspective to explore new lands,  I happened to get to know quite a few of them all around the world. I list some of them here, and in this field Soth America rules:
(sources of the images: Wikipedia)

El Alto, Bolivia, 4150mts, 1mln+

Cerro De Pasco, Peru, 4650mts, 0,07mln+

Puno, Peru, 3800mts, 0.01mln+


The altitude of 4000m is actually too high and doesnt allow for the optimal benefit of body adopting to lower oxygen level due to the air density drop. Perfect high altitude is closer to 3500m as it allows you to make the best out of the high altitude training. And there are plenty of towns to choose from. When it gets to 4000m and above the fat metabolism is being disturbed due to oxygen shortage and it has many consequences related to fitness and performance. 5000m+ doesn't really allow for the fat to burn at all and, basing on sugars, especially simple sugars,it is definitely not a great enhancement for your performance. And if you happen to arrive there by a motorbike, itis possible that in some cases you will experience the engine refusing to work. If you gain elevation within a very short time, for example arrive by a plane, the first 3 days do nothing! Otherwise the altitude sickness will extend your adaptation period signifficantly.

why simple sugars are not the best energy form?

At the end, short note worth mentioning. Apparently Buteyko method brings same results as high altitude training, regardless of what altitude you live at.

Other travels

P.S. Don't ask me what it is.

Inside the suitcase-like box in the photo is a portable rowing machine personally owned by George F. Jowett, a very influential writer, athlete and promoter of weight training during the first half of the 20th century. Called the “Seat of Health,” this rowing machine is made of stainless steel and was marketed as a device which could be carried on trips by busy, but fitness-conscious, travellers.

Where do I know it from.....?

Another interesting place I came across recently in the other part of our globe was Aurobindo Spiritual Center in Pondicherry, India. (place known to many of you as a hometown of Pi from "Life of Pi") It was one of the few very interesting places combining the physical education and spiritual practice. One of very few places of that type. I visited itmainly because I was constantly coming acrossAurobindo's name being mentioned by famous people born on the same day I was born. It was really surprising to see the humble spiritual center equipped withproper olympic gym, fitness gym and facilities for all sorts of sports. There was a beautiful, heartbraking rowing ergometer from the 40ties in tip top shape. Unfortunately I wasn't allowed to take picture of it.

And here is the scan of the founder of the center talking about fitness and beauty. Well, I would definitely contribute to it :)

Africa

Most of these months I spent in Africa involved in high altitude training. I would like to share one of the films that caught my attention:

It's a modern day fairy tale that quite realistically sets us on a journey through all of the beauty and struggle Africa consists of. Ultimately it generates hope.

Tesla

reblogged from: http://theoatmeal.com/

Beowulf

fragment of BEOWULF'S ROWING-MATCH by James W. Earl

The idea of a swimming-match is so deeply embedded in Beowulf scholarship, of course, that it can never be revoked, even if proved groundless; but here I present my little anyway, if only to discover its weaknesses.

This is no small issue. If by any chance my skepticism should prove justified, our reading of the whole poem would be affected. For the style of the poem has always seemed contradictory: on the one hand it is characterized throughout by typically Germanic understatement, much like the sagas; but on the other hand a certain few episodes display a more hyperbolic Celtic style. In fact, these hyperbolic episodes all have to do with Beowulf s awesome swimming abilities: not only do he and Breca swim on the ocean for seven days and nights with full armor and weapons (without food or water?); he also swims home from Frisia carrying thirty coats of armor, and he appears to be able to hold his breath for hours underwater in Grendel's mere. I for one would be pleased to find these universally accepted interpretations' mistaken, so that the poem might be more consistently Germanic in tone, the style more harmonious with the sobriety and realism of the poem's dark themes.

Though the marvelous and the supernatural abound in heroic literature generally, hyperbole does not, and it would certainly be hard to find such obvious and absurd exaggerations as these in the other heroic tales of Northern Europe (though some of the mythical stories of gods and giants in Snorri's Edda qualify as tall-tales). Among the Germanic peoples, litotes is not so much a literary style as a style of life, the natural ethical outcome of the stoical and tragic view of the world expressed so powerfully in Beowulf. A Germanic hero may occasionally be expected to kill sea-beasts and dragons among his other adversaries, as Othin and Sigurth (or Sigmund) do, but he is not expected to display grotesque or superhuman powers like a Cuchulainn. Briefly, the Germanic hero is macho, he is not Superman; Superman is definitely not macho. So Beowulf's alleged swimming powers could not be more untypical. They could only be explained as an Irish influence upon the style of the poem, and not a happy one in my view. If we read lines 506-581 of the poem carefully, but without the preconceived notion of a swimming-match, we will not find a swimming-match there.

Atlantic ocean crossing archive

Fiann's expedition journal, delivered at the time via sat phone:


7 Jan

So far none of the days were as bad as the first one, wet, windy and dark. For some time we had to row against the wind and the waves but now nature is supporting us.
Dolphins are like friends, they stay with us for long time but whales are more mysterious, they just pop up and then disappear. Yesterday we saw a pilot whale.

Rowing in the night literally feels like drifting in outer space. The ocean is totally dark and you see only the cloudless sky, full of stars. I may have only seen such a sky, high in the Himalayas. It feels like we were pushing ourselves away from the stars, catching some of them by the oars.

Planktons shine beautifully with each stroke. The oars seem to activate the release of fluorescent light. It looks like magical trail left behind by our space ship in the sky. Sometimes a bit of plankton ends up on the deck and shines like a special button or sensor of the spacecraft.

I am very tired and my hands are full of blisters. Pain limits me more than my endurance.
I miss the clouds, but I know that the appearance of the kind of clouds I like, would mean that there are low and high pressure systems, converging, an experience I would not like to have on the boat. Still, a blank sky makes me feel a bit claustrophobic.


8 Jan

Rowing, when injuries don’t bother me is a pleasure. I feel as if the boat is flying. There are some days when my sore hands and back don’t bother me that much.
Another beautiful night: Although the waters were not still, stars were reflected in the ocean. It was unbelievable, like jewels being poured into our lap. The sky filled with shining stars kept moving softly in any almost random directions, depending on where the boat was moved by the waves.
But then, the waves were high enough to bring me this dynamic quality of the elements that I love. In the 13th Warrior, at the beginning of the movie, you can see what it’s like for a small boat to be among big waves. They were just 2m today but crossing them felt like some unreal computer game. So far, this is the part I like the most. You go up and down and sometimes between the waves as if through a passageway. It’s mind boggling that boat remains on track.
Soon there are going to be 5m high waves. I am really looking forward to that experience. And, although it has not been forecasted yet, it is possible we’ll be rowing in 10m high waves.


13 Jan

The waves you could see in a movie from an ocean trial in Agadir were absolutely nothing compared to what we met today. When we arrived in a zone of strong winds, I felt as if we entered a kind of water realm or water city. Normally when I think about the great expanse of the ocean, I think far and wide. This landscape took on 3 dimensions. I’ve seen the ocean many times but rarely have I beheld big waves from the water level, and this time, even more startling, they were coming at me.

In the middle of a long stroke when we cautiously raised our eyes to observe the waters ahead we saw the color of a wave you usually don’t see right next to your boat. We saw the white foam of a breaking wave. This wave would not float beneath raising us gently like the others. Like an angry sea monster whipping its tail, this one hit us like a wall, lifting us off our seats.
We will soon be rowing over the sunken Island of Atlantis. This may be why I kept feeling that we were traversing new routes and new lands; never just the same ocean waters. I really feel like we are passing through different countries.
I learned the shape of the water is created by 3 factors: waves, swells and currents with many types in different combination of height, width, shape and dynamics exposed differently in different angl of sunlight.
Waves sometimes seem to be mysterious supernatural beings, like silent hermits passing our boat.

Now the waves are 5 meters high, extremely enjoyable and entertaining; best part of our journey.
The floating summits and valleys of the ocean water-mountains is like having sex with an ancient sea goddess, with nature itself or the spirit of the ocean.
We don’t sleep much. On the 3rd night shift yesterday (6th hour of the nighttime rowing) our captain had a vision that he was rowing a train. I had a vision that I had crab legs instead of oars.


Jan 21st

If I stick to the vision of a spaceship that the boat reminds me of at night, on some of the nights I can call this a spaceship rodeo. While in most cases our objective is to develop the highest velocity possible, in these cases the objective is to remain on the rowing seat keeping the boat on track. Ocean water moves irregularly to the extent that it doesn’t allow you to keep regular full strokes, moreover you have to keep balancing with your body weight each time the boat leans. Sometimes you can’t even keep a basic stroke because you are being lifted and turned by the wild activity of the rodeo. It’s very dynamic and entertaining. During these times it reminds more me of white water river kayaking than rowing although we’re in the middle of the ocean.

Some nights were dark, wet and windy. Waves were slapping into the boat regardless of our maneuvers. There is nothing pleasant in finishing a 2hr night shift in absolute darkness, totally soaked, getting back to the cabin, closing it tightly so that the water doesn’t flood in, sleeping in an ultra small space next to two other rowers and after 2 hrs, putting these wet clothes back on and getting back to rowing with the waves hugging you every 15 minutes.

Some days though, were so different. My favorite rowing mode reminded me of fairy tales of ships sailing in the skies. What first comes to mind is Laputa, the castle in the sky by Miyazaki that has old wooden ships with big sails and many oars, free of the earth's gravity, sailing amongst the clouds. I felt as if we were one of these flying/rowing vessels. This was the only way to move through high but noninvasive, randomly moving waves where long complete slow strokes and consistency was crucial; much more important than the power or the speed of the stroke. And as I am on stroke for my shift, I enjoyed it and attempted to enter this rowing mode as often as possible. I believe if experience like this were offered as one of the weekend attractions, there would be plenty of people ready to pay for it. :) It was so contemplative and soothing, almost effortless. 2 hours were passing in seconds followed by the feeling of sailing in the sky. As it was so strongly against the physics of rowing, we were almost fully convinced of rowing in a different realm than water.

Sometimes when I was looking at the waters against the sun, it was black, covered with hundreds of white reflections of cold sunlight. It reminded me of high parts of the Himalayas. Sometimes after a longer time of being exposed to different conditions, scenes and the spirit of the environment, I realized that at such times we activate different spheres of our inner spaces and deactivate those that we would frequently use when we are in familiar settings. When I’ve been asked what is like above 6000 meters, I should say, rocks and ice. But I would say rocks, ice and spirits, because the third element was almost tangible. The same element was appearing while I was observing heavy black ocean waters for a long period. I find it refreshing, to reset my mind at times, by exposing it to different environments, and conditioning it in different ways. It’s so healthy and revitalizing, like rebooting computer.

Last night our rowing was quite intense. You don’t see the water in the dark so when you are rowing you have to assume the water level. River rowing is very smooth because the water level is stable. Ocean waters are in usually unpredictable.
Suddenly out of nowhere I saw a axe blade flying from the side and striking the front of the boat. I burst into laughter because I had instinctively imagined we’d entered a land of local natives who were attacking us with a tomahawk. What had actually happened was that captain rowing behind me, misjudged the water level and pulled the oar very hard causing a surprise shift. After stroking for a while, things calmed down and we were back on course.
We are 6 guys here. I really like the company of sportsmen. First of all I love their ability to have fun without alcohol. Second I am convinced their healthy condition reflects upon their mind level, making them bright and nice to be around. This was our circle, ocean rowers, connected by one similar feature. We were all looking for experience beyond than what the world most frequently offers today.

We have two shifts. I am on stroke for first shift. Being on stroke means the guy who sets the stroke – speed, length and technique. Captain Matt is on the second position, behind me, so I can’t play computer instead of sleeping while captain is trying to sleep, haha, because I am sentenced to spending all my time with him. Matt does not like today’s society requirements and expresses it by constantly speaking in rapper slang despite being English. Graham is on the third seat of my shift and only the load of muscles this 110kg monster has, justifies his similar snoring volume, haha. He rows well. For the second shift Rob is on stroke. He is quiet, humble and dedicated and carries a true sportsman’s spirit. He is highly developed in team sports dynamics. Motivating and supporting others is something I could learn from his impressive attitude. While Matt is the head of the team, Rob is the heart. I guess I can be defined as being a bit of the muscle. :) Second position after Rob is Adam. Captain described him this way, “He’s so easy going that he is almost horizontal!” I love that sentence. Adam is a multidisciplinary sportsman and an artist in his free time. Thomas, third position on the second shift is an ultra long distance cycler. He is like a child, but not childish just joyful and enthusiastic.
I’m grateful to be here.


2 Feb
Most ocean rowers use heavy-duty painkillers but I do not. In fact, don’t feel any pain (anymore) and I consider this quite an achievement. I enjoy the rowing shifts finding them very pleasant. It’s just the eating and sleeping conditions that makes this experience extreme. That is aside from the shift at the end of the day. This is the biggest challenge. There are 6, day shifts and 6 night shifts. After our 4th night shift we’re exhausted and rowing becomes very difficult. During this time we've all hallucinated. I’ve mentioned some of my experiences already in earlier blogs.
Recently saw a hand coming out of the ocean and wanted to shake mine but when I realized it was a hallucination, Istepped back. On another occasion the captain had a vision of rowing a train or a car and not being able to find the exit off the highway, haha!

People have been tracking our trip and some other ocean rowers have given their impressions. They’ve described this as a sort of a battlefield but to me it’s like racing the swells that remind me of horses. Shining like a huge bright flame in the night sky I revel in the beauty of the moonlight as the dark shape of waves like galloping horses pass by.

The reflection of the moonlight fills the trail on the water behind the boat. It is long and moves gracefully like a flame, holding me in its spell for hours. We had a magnificent day of complex cloud formations. Sometimes these huge clouds break into each other like fantasy beings clashing and deluge us with rain.

I have a lot of beautiful dreams, maybe because of where my mind is when I’m rowing. We are plugged into nature and charged by its energy to the extreme. I am no longer disturbed by what usually disconnects me from the source of life energy. When I am rowing my mind is free. I have no agendas, schedules, phone calls.... My mind is simply uncluttered and when it opens, there’s space for my deeper subconscious mind to speak to me. The most beautiful dream I had is very long. I will describe the end of the dream, which was the crucial part. I was standing before the sea under the night sky. I saw pounding waves in light, illuminated by a being that was drifting close to the shore. We were facing each other. She looked like the storm goddess and the personification of death. She was in white robes, calm and composed. She sat on a raft made of dead people placed randomly but in a beautiful design. The bodies were not rotten. It reminded me of a Greek sculpture. She sent her thoughts to me through her eyes. She tried to convince me to join her but I wasn't willing.
I believe that many of the beautiful dreams I had were from the effects of gravity. The rocking boat turned my reality into floating shapes, morphing landscapes etc. that often showed up in my dreams.

The most frequently used hair-brushing device in my case is a knife. I have no clue how Vikings handled it. The salty water and ocean air, wind and sun combined with sleeping on a rocking boat that makes your head move repetitively naturally forms dreadlocks. All this ruined our hair very quickly. I read that Vikings washed their hair once a week. I have no idea how they did it during those long sailing voyages.

It was quite funny, Rob, who was on stroke in the second shift, came suddenly in the middle of our night shift and said, "Would you guys open the back door?" We burst into laughter. Obviously he was sleepwalking.

Flying fish emerge from the water in formations just like birds. They keep flying out and diving into the water again. There are plenty of them. The closer to Barbados we are, the more we see them. It’s no wonder they are they the national symbol. Many of the flying fish wound up in our boat. No exaggeration, there were about 10 each morning!

I am listening to music a lot. I brought my favorite album by Fejd called ‘Storm’ that l listened to throughout the trip. Here are some samples of their music:
Fejd - Offerök
Other than that I am listening to audio lectures, mystics talking about life, accomplishment, joy and fulfillment originating mostly from knowledge of Tantra, Taoism, Sufism; all these paths that enable us to explore and experience life, even demanding it as the only way to obtain wisdom and growth.

Once I saw a beautiful scene created by windless weather and heavy rain. It looked so symmetrical as if designed by computer graphics placed on a repetitive pattern of waves all around. It reminded me of Zen paintings that depicted Boddhidharma sitting in front of the pounding waves of the ocean. It was simplicity and minimalism in visual expression, just as nature made it.
Once there was an extremely strong wave coming from the side of the boat that hit it like a train running full speed on a track. It broke just before our boat, soaking us completely. While it was coming I could hear captain’s voice making a train station announcement: "Welcome to the South Atlantic Express to Venezuela stopping over the Sara G!"

When I row I see the cabin in front of me. When a wave like this hit us, I saw everything flying around in the cabin. Once I saw Adam sleeping and rolling along all the walls of the cabin: bottom-side-ceiling-side, as a reaction to a strong wave hitting the boat.
The weather changed as we approached Barbados. Before nights were cold and days were bearable, now nights are bearable and days are too hot but at least when we get soaked it doesn't freeze any more.

On Feb. 8th, 2011 at 11:16 GMT the team arrived in Port Saint Charles, Barbados weathered, worn and victorious but also slightly wistful for the satisfaction that would fill them in the coming days and years came through a close encounter with an ocean that freely shared its heart and soul with them for 33 unforgettable days, that now, alas, they would be parting.
Why I believe we succeeded

Preparations: First of all we had the benefit of Captain Matt’s past experience. It was the third time he rowed this route and the second time this year. Based on his experience he strategically planned this trip with a keen sense of what we would be facing. Utilizing a satellite phone he kept in touch with experts on the weather conditions throughout the trip. He also knew the boat intimately and had spare parts to replace every single component. He selected the crew based not only on fitness and performance but also on whether our attitude would help the team keep positive and motivated. So we ended up as a team of positive people, which I attribute as an essential element of our success.

Team performance: The general requirement for ocean rowing is to be able to row 2:15 split (rowing speed parameter: average time for 500 meters) for 2 hours 3-4 times a week. Our results were much higher. I could row 25km 1:57.3 split fastest and I could row below 2:00 split during all the training, often more than 4 days a week. All the crew were approximately there.
Weather: Something you can never control. Apparently the storm goddess that appeared in my dream gave us a break.

Luck: I don't like to talk about luck, but you might say we had some bad luck when our centerboard broke. If your boat runs across a lost fishing net and ends up with irreplaceable damage, which is probably how it happened, you might call it that.
I write this with a heart of gratitude for Captain’s management and for the good fellowship of the crew.